I've got to get there. I've got to go. Please please PLEASE be on the list for CrossWalk's missions trips. Waiting until, what, the 14th? Come ON, I can't wait that long.
If you're not on the list, I'm going to Convoy directly. I'm going this year. If I don't go this year... Ugh, man, no, Lord, please. I finally have some semblance of passion in my life and if I let it die...
I have some inkling of my purpose, something greater outside of these four walls, this however-small-big-whatever square footage, outside of this life. Please.
No, I don't care about him. He'll come whenever You want him there. He's lost much meaning to me now that I've exhausted the idea. Don't let him come back. Keep him out of mind until then. I don't want him to be referenced, I don't want to think of him, I don't want to hear talk of him. I want to stop thinking every one I meet could be him or lead me to him.
I want to stop obsessing.
I want to go. That's the most important thing to me now. Well, other than You, obviously. I need a physical reminder. I was going to draw their flag, but go figure it's the most complicated thing ever. Maybe just their motto...? Some memorabilia somewhere? (Like people here would carry- ...Hm. Maybe I could hit up Amazon. Or more locally, get deeper into the recesses of the Thrift Store. Speaking of, kickin' dress, Lord.)
Off to find a physical source of inspiration.
Much love, God Bless,
EPD
(P.S. Got any prayer requests? Even leaving an "unspoken" in the comments is perfectly fine.)
Who's this "him" that you are referring to, sis? I'm curious. Hm... I have an inkling of what you might be talking about, but I want to confirm my suspitions. I'm very curious by this.
ReplyDeletePrayer requests? Ha. School, relationships, life in general. I'm trying to find my physical passion as well. It's... Hard. Idk what I"m looking for. Oh well. The Lord has something. I'm just waiting for it to go *bonk*.
Love ya!
P.s. I just love ranting in the comments on your blogs.